Even though I’ve been saved since I was 5, and raised in a good Christian home I lived a very defeated life. God wasn’t real to me, I didn’t have or care about having a personal relationship with him. He always seemed so far away, so when I went through something hard he was usually the last one I turned to for help.
I had a terrible time sleeping because I was very fearful of things that sound ridiculous to me now. I thought I would be left behind when Jesus came back because God forgot about me. I was afraid of dying in my sleep. I would lay awake, tears rolling down my face because I was too scared to close my eyes but too tired to keep them open.
I also had problems physically, like sometimes my heart would skip a beat. I had migraine headaches, and trouble focusing my eyes in and out.
Plus, I’ve always been a very shy, timid person. Like I heard someone else say, I wouldn’t even order my own food at a restaurant because I didn’t want to talk to the waitress.
I’ve been a part of the River Church since February 2011 and since then God and His Word have become more real to me than ever before. I always knew in my head that his promises were for me but now it’s getting down into my heart. I’ve been pressing in like I didn’t even know was possible. RBI especially has helped me go deeper into the things of God. I wish everyone could come and experience this with me.
I now sleep SOUNDLY through the night, no fear at all. My heart has a light feeling and beats in time. I can’t remember the last time I had a migraine. I thought I would have to get glasses and I don’t. I proclaim the Gospel to total strangers, I’ve taken nearly 100 calls in the call center already, and I order my own lunch.
One of my favorite verses is Matthew 6:33 which says, “But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you.” Because that’s what I did, I went after God and one by one my problems left.
God is so amazingly good, just thinking about all this stuff that He’s done for me puts a smile on my face…..Mary K P.